This week I have been processing the inner healing ministry I went through last week. There were a lot of emotions that surfaced. I really needed the Lord to reveal to me what was going on because I felt like I would not be able to move forward.
He led me to watch a recording of Mark Chironna. He spoke about going back to the place were you lost your power. God gives us power to live. The enemy tries to take it from us so we do not fulfill our destiny. I asked the Lord to show me where I had lost my power. He clearly revealed to me that when I felt no one heard me over and over, I lost my voice and the power to feel like an overcomer. But the deepest root was that I had not forgiven myself. When others didn’t believe me that something wrong was happening, I shut down and bad things happened. I blamed myself and had not forgiven myself. Over and over my thoughts were what if I had just been more persistent this bad thing would have never happened.
I asked the Lord to help me forgive myself and He did. Peace came over me and a weight heavy and cold left me. I was able to rest. I am able to trust.
Jesus was asked what is the greatest commandment and His answer was this:
Jesus replied: ” ‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.” Matthew 22:37-40
One of the greatest acts of love is forgiveness.
Lord please help me forgive myself where I have failed others and myself. Help me to let go of the pain of regrets. Please Lord let your healing love wash over me like a cleansing rain and bring wholeness to my life. Thank you for forgiving, loving and setting me free. Amen.